I didn’t realize how much I needed it.
Just a moment to myself to soak in the ocean breeze.
I felt gunked up inside and out. The bad permeated my
skin and clung to my spirit. I needed a natural salt cleansing, if only for a
moment. Blow that stink off of me.
After being pushed and pulled in too many directions, everybody
claiming their right to my existence I finally had enough. You’d think it was a
flattering position to be in, but it’s not. I don’t like being man-handled physically
or emotionally. I was getting twitchy and bitchy and needed space.
We broke free. Headed down the highway – speed limit be
damned. (I say that but in reality I don’t want a ticket so I behaved myself –
but in my head I was RACING down the road.)
Like I’ve said many times before – I don’t care what the
weather is – any day at the beach is a good one. This was a grey winter day. It
was cold and windy, just on the verge of snow, but not there yet. If I were any
other region in the world, I’d hate it, but the biting wind felt good on my over-heated
skin. The sand was hard and unforgiving. It was just us and a few brave seagulls.
It was wonderful.
I stood facing out towards the water with my eyes closed
and my arms out – ready to embrace the smudging I so desperately needed. I willed my senses to open up and release the
tension and blockages. I welcomed the wind that skipped off the water and blew
at me. I envisioned the wind laced with the sea salt blowing through me and
pushing the blech out the back. The longer I stood there, the lighter I felt in
mind, body, and spirit.
I could breathe again.
The smile now came easily. The tightness in my chest loosened
. The kink in my neck straightened. My
clogged sinuses opened up.
And this all happened in the first 10 minutes of being
there.
After that I knew I could handle the rest of the day.
Even though what I ran from was still eagerly waiting for my return from the
beach, I just knew it was going to be ok. I was going to be ok.
My new meditation for stressful situations:
Close eyes.
Breathe slowly.
Imagine the ocean gently washing up onto the beach in a
soothing rhythm.
Imagine the salted air tickling over my neck and face to ruffle
my hair.
Imagine the breeze carrying away the negativity.
Let it go.
